I dont know why i keep things locked up in my heart..
i mean… when people make mistakes.. i tend to forgive.. but believe me.. i can never forget what they did to me, even if it was not on purpose..
i know there’s a contradiction in what i’m saying.. cause how can someone forgive but not forget!..
but its something that i cant control..
i mean.. its like a “wound that stops bleeding for a while then tends to bleed again”.. i may get over what they did for a while.. but once they hurt me again the scar tends to freshen up..
yes.. i know that Islam has asked us to forgive… i try my best to oblige myself to forgive and forget but.. i keep failing myself..
at times, i tell myself.. maybe i tend to forgive and not forget.. because when they hurt me at the beginning i bottle the sadness and anger in me… and then by time the sadness and anger become like words engraved on a stone.. in other words.. they cant be erased..i really dont know how to change this flaw in me..
but i hope that i can someday get rid of it completely..
forgive but cant forget 不
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